Aaahhh~....hari last keje...huhuhu...giler serunok siot...~! last few days...sumthing happened to a friend of mine. THis dude got rejected...yeah...that's it people...REJECTED. but don't get me wrong...it's not like i'm gonna tell u guys everything that he whines about...eheheh. aku just....nak bercerita sket...pasal reject2 nih...
as for me...aku...mmg sangat takut rejections. serious...agak painful la kena reject nih...dan throughout my life...aku dah tak larat nak kira baper kali kena reject...(loser siot aku). lepaih kena reject tu...aku...sedih laa....kecewa....ati picah...~ tensen menggiler...mula la kononnyer nak isap rokok dua tiga batang sekali jalan...nak carik beer ke...wiski ke...nak amik dadah laa....nak kelar tangan sendiri la...memacam lagi lah...yang leh menyumbang pada kemusnahan diri sendiri( ye ye...sebelum korang cakap...aku akan cakap sendiri.."bodo la aku...!")...ye lah...kira dah sehabis emo la tu konon.
member aku pun dok cakap, dia penah rasa benda lebey kurang gitu, tapi dia kata...ari tu...ntah...cam...rilek jer...ada gak la...a bit of a sting kat ati nih. ye lah...ati mmg dah syg kt someone tu...sekali telah direject plak...but surprisingly...less painful.
kenapa...? ntah ah...mungkin sbb dah dapat jangka kot....akan direject...tapi daripada buat andaian...baik tanya je straight...skali alih2...mmg ye kena reject...heheheh. tak pun mmg dah selalu sangat kena reject...sampai dah lali...eheheh.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Ones that forget
i have a few, but i feel alone,
i have one, but i feel none,
i can be in a crowded room,
but i feel like i’m in an empty room without windows,
i can try, not that i can’t
just don’t want to,
i feel it’s a waste,
but somehow, someone with someone else,
here i am left alone,
there are times, i tried to reach out
i got the hold, but had to let go,
don’t want to, but was insisted,
i put it down, i put it in,
waited, usually fell through, till the break of dawn,
no use saying it out loud,
when nobody’s listening,
no use whispering,
no one can hear you,
seriously, what is it to be loved?
cared, loved, existed, noticed,
want to be a newborn,
or maybe brainwashed,
so one can’t remember,
the ones that forget…
i have one, but i feel none,
i can be in a crowded room,
but i feel like i’m in an empty room without windows,
i can try, not that i can’t
just don’t want to,
i feel it’s a waste,
but somehow, someone with someone else,
here i am left alone,
there are times, i tried to reach out
i got the hold, but had to let go,
don’t want to, but was insisted,
i put it down, i put it in,
waited, usually fell through, till the break of dawn,
no use saying it out loud,
when nobody’s listening,
no use whispering,
no one can hear you,
seriously, what is it to be loved?
cared, loved, existed, noticed,
want to be a newborn,
or maybe brainwashed,
so one can’t remember,
the ones that forget…
buts & maybes
this life, mine, yours, ours,
more or less the same,
and yet, so different,
maybe you can face it,
but i don’t think i can,
maybe you can get use to it,
or you’ve already used to it,
now that i may not know how to use it,
maybe they say it’s nothing,
but i say, it’s not just a ‘THING’,
maybe they say it’s impossible,
but i can’t say impossible is nothing,
maybe we can say, i may be wrong,
but i say, maybe it’s just me,
maybe we can say all this is crap,
but i say, it’s just a bunch of bull….
more or less the same,
and yet, so different,
maybe you can face it,
but i don’t think i can,
maybe you can get use to it,
or you’ve already used to it,
now that i may not know how to use it,
maybe they say it’s nothing,
but i say, it’s not just a ‘THING’,
maybe they say it’s impossible,
but i can’t say impossible is nothing,
maybe we can say, i may be wrong,
but i say, maybe it’s just me,
maybe we can say all this is crap,
but i say, it’s just a bunch of bull….
ashes
wondering myself
as i look at the world
the way i look it thru my eyes
may never be the same
like everybody else’s
as time goes by
be old, be wise
be bold, be nice
and in time one can find,
happiness after all the sadness
in this life
we can achieve greatness
our efforts and our hopes
so we believe, for each of us
we will have our chances
where do we belong?
do we belong anywhere?
anyway…foretold the lies that
may be the truth
what is like to be
the one to see it
all crumble down to ashes…
as i look at the world
the way i look it thru my eyes
may never be the same
like everybody else’s
as time goes by
be old, be wise
be bold, be nice
and in time one can find,
happiness after all the sadness
in this life
we can achieve greatness
our efforts and our hopes
so we believe, for each of us
we will have our chances
where do we belong?
do we belong anywhere?
anyway…foretold the lies that
may be the truth
what is like to be
the one to see it
all crumble down to ashes…
Watcher
as i watch the changing weather
from the window of my cell
may be clear outside
but inside me it’s raining blood
just what is there to do
with someone and there is only me
to hold there’s nobody
to embrace there’s no one
the heart is void
is it not? will it be?
half empty it may be
half full? not likely
the weather’s changing
here comes the rain
as if nature’s wept with me
she felt the melancholy
once reality escapes me
the fantasy grabs a hold of me
the nightmares choking me
now life itself comforts me
from the window of my cell
may be clear outside
but inside me it’s raining blood
just what is there to do
with someone and there is only me
to hold there’s nobody
to embrace there’s no one
the heart is void
is it not? will it be?
half empty it may be
half full? not likely
the weather’s changing
here comes the rain
as if nature’s wept with me
she felt the melancholy
once reality escapes me
the fantasy grabs a hold of me
the nightmares choking me
now life itself comforts me
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
The Waves
to be in front of you
although i’m somewhat behind the line
it’s a bliss i never want to miss
it’s the energy that i can never resist
with your hands lifted in the air
the waves of you, welcomes me
appreciate the support
so i thank you
with you say it with me
knowing every word i say
screaming at the top of ur lungs
understand every word we say
i want to be there again
it’s the only time i feel so alive
the one feeling that can never be replaced
day by day i longing for the embrace
although i’m somewhat behind the line
it’s a bliss i never want to miss
it’s the energy that i can never resist
with your hands lifted in the air
the waves of you, welcomes me
appreciate the support
so i thank you
with you say it with me
knowing every word i say
screaming at the top of ur lungs
understand every word we say
i want to be there again
it’s the only time i feel so alive
the one feeling that can never be replaced
day by day i longing for the embrace
The Decision
the rain is pouring down
as she lay alone on her bed
thinking what would happen
to all the things in her head
she can’t decide on
what to do or what to wear
as she take a look in the closet
she can never choose, she can’t compare
and old sweater’s hanging there
gives her warmth and comfort
on the otherside, there’s the new evening dress
makes her feel beautiful and elegent
but there’s always another option
it’s always her choice, her decision
just throw away the dress, and go burn the sweater
just go out and find a new attire
as she lay alone on her bed
thinking what would happen
to all the things in her head
she can’t decide on
what to do or what to wear
as she take a look in the closet
she can never choose, she can’t compare
and old sweater’s hanging there
gives her warmth and comfort
on the otherside, there’s the new evening dress
makes her feel beautiful and elegent
but there’s always another option
it’s always her choice, her decision
just throw away the dress, and go burn the sweater
just go out and find a new attire
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