Saturday, August 28, 2010

Sesudah Sahur Lagi...

Ahad - DuaSembilanKosongLapanDuaPuluhSepuluh - eheh...lagi sekali...aku wat blog after sahur...actually aku dah sahur awal dah...tapi aku berjaga sampai abih waktu sahur(nasib baik la sok cuti...kalo ari keje...mmg aku tak wat camni...). okeh...apa plak aku nak merapu pepagi buta nih...?

ok...start with a little bit after midnite...aku terasa amat bosan...aku rasa amat tidak best(macam biasa la...), plus...aku terasa lapar...so...aku gi la mamak kat sect15 bangi...aku gi naik skuter...mmg aku lagi senang gi memana bawak skuter...ye lah...parking tak menjadi masalah...nak2 plak mlm tadi...ada football match...mmg sesak la area 15 tu. tensen gak aku...apa la seronok tgk football match nih...? tapi...kalo dah pasal minat...aku mmg takkan argue la...most people...kalo dah pasal minat...mmg sanggup wat memacam...just like me & music. bleh dikatakan sanggup perabih semata2 sbb music.

so aku melabuhkan diri atas kerusi(nak try atas meja...tapi takut kena humban keluar kedai...) dlm kedai mamak yang selalu aku melepak online sorang2...Ameerali. aku order nasi puteh+paprik daging...& teh ais. sementara tunggu order sampai...aku online lah.

sebelum aku keluar umah...aku ada post status kat FB...asking about where can i get my hands on some antidepressant pills...and surprisingly...ada beberapa rakan2 yang gave comments about that status...tq my friends...but dont worry...it's not that i'm really gonna take it. it's just that...i was kinda down(depressed?)...and only felt like popping a pill. and yeah...they(my friends) were like asking why...and i can only answer to a certain few...

masa online FB...i was talking to a friend via the FB chat(agak menyakitkan ati chatting ngan menatang FB chat nih)...she asked about the status...so i tell her why...and she gave me her feedback about it. she told me she went thru the same thing...well not exactly the same thing...but...more or less i guess...and she did mention about her friends got bored of her constant complains...and they somewhat abandoned her...now...that's harsh...no...i think that's cruel. but then again...you have to admit...your friends...they're humans...and as humans...they themselves have their own problems to think about...so...i guess they can only standby you up to a certain extent.

so...she went on giving me advice and opinions(most appreciated, tq)...masa dok borak tu...tetiba people started to go inside the mamak...i was like..."uh-oh.. "...apa yang aku risaukan...mmg bebetul terjadi...hujan turun...and it's a downpour...mmg lebat gile...mmg aku bertapa lebih lama la kat mamak tu...tapi, mujur la durasi nyer tak lama mana...timing hujan berenti pun ngam2 masa laptop aku nak abis bateri...so i pack my stuff and head home. baru lepas hujan...aku naik skuter tanpa sweater and cargo shorts...freakishly cold...~!!!

reached home @ 3am...and i thought about what she told me...well...she told me a lot...but one thing about changing my attitude...that is something, i should do...i have to start to look at things positively...(being a pessimist...that is not an easy task...). how...? well i guess there's only one way to find out...

my my...this turned out to be a long entry...eheh...

- stixx, fixxing out...~! -

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