Weird Nightmarish Dream

MonDay - KosongSembilanKosongSembilanDuaPuluhTigaBelas - monday morning...even when i'm not working, it's still kind of a dreaded day. maybe because it's the first day of the week, perhaps? anyways...wanna talk about a weird nightmarish dream i had last night. as usual...i never remember how the dream started. but the thing i can remember most was...there's a house/chalet. there were people in my dreams...can't remember them at all, except for my wife. so this so called house/chalet, is kinda haunted i guess...because in that dream, i always have this feeling that something is watching us. and there were times where i thought i saw something like a spirit...or ghost...apparition. looked like a woman. can't make out the face though (thank god...). to me the scariest part was, when i was riding the motorbike with my wife...trying to get out of that place...when suddenly i saw something flew past by us and suddenly my vision went fade to black...i went blind in that dream!. i panicked...called out to my wife, and she didn't answer...try to feel her behind me with my hands...she's gone!. after that, i felt someone, or something in front of me...and then i woke up...and i think it was four to five in the morning...and i had trouble going back to sleep. 

now i'm kinda sleepy...demmit, why must i had that kind of dreams...?

-stixx, fixxing out...-

From Analog To Digital

WednesDay - 0Empat0SembilanDuaPuluh13 - Okay yeah...wednesday. Hmm...alrite, in my earlier posts...i mentioned about vaping. vaping is basically a different type of cigarette...because it doesn't actually produce smoke but vapor instead, so it's called vaping. 

i started vaping nearly 2 years ago. thanx to a few friends of mine promoting this vaping culture. even at that time, to my surprise...vaping have started quite a long time ago. not in Malaysia but mainly overseas. 

the most frequently ask question..."does it taste like real cigarette...?". to me the definite answer is "NO". it doesn't taste like cigarette at all. but then again, to me personally...the satisfaction is more than the real cigarette. i know most smokers doesn't think so. why the satisfaction...? i guess because of the vapor('smoke') itself. when i vape...with the right settings...i can produce vapor so much, it's like cloud...dense fog. we call it "awan nano". apart from that, it's healthier...and no unpleasant smell. i can vape during a traffic-jam in a heavy rain...don't have to roll down the windows.

my earlier mods

a type of clearomizer

a type of cartomizer

i started with the ego-type mods. it's electronic. easy to use, no hassle kind of mod. with a voltage variable function. i used this type for nearly a year. combining with several types of clearomizers and cartomizers.

after awhile...i've been introduced to the mechanical type mods...and the genesis type tanks. basically the more technical type of hardwares. earlier on...using these 'upgrades', kinda frustrating. i have to learn how to coil, recoil and setting it up. i was this close to giving up. but thankfully, i have friends to help me out. 

so yeah...along the way, when the vaping culture started to bloom in Malaysia...certain parties started to take interest. and mostly started to cause problems. sellers, resellers starting to appear here and there. DIY juices...local modders...they're everywhere. but most of 'em, from the way i see it...they're only there for the profit. there are...not all...sell vaping stuff too pricy...but no quality. there are others saying that vaping is more dangerous than smoking. i was like...what the f*ck...? 

i basically couldn't care less what the haters say about vaping. to me...it do me good. so that's that...

-stixx, fixxing out...-

Jobless

Monday - KosongDuaKosongSembilanDuaPuluhTigaBelas - another day being jobless. going out quite early in the morning...having a relaxed breakfast at the kopitiam or mamak. watching other people with jobs hustling to get to their offices...it's basically a bliss. and i'm doing exactly that. had breakfast with a long time friend of mine...just chatting mostly about vaping, while he's recoiling my atomizer. ah yes...vaping, i don't think i ever blog about being a vaper...next entry perhaps. 

one thing i found out about being jobless...u will miss the days being with a job. the thing is, when u do have job...u always longing for that day off...lazying around the house, practically doing nothing. just being human i guess. and the only thing that i miss most is...PAYDAY~!. 

gotta find me a job soon...~

-stixx, fixxing out...-

Post-Merdeka - Death

Sunday - KosongSatuKosongSembilanDuaPuluhTigaBelas - Yeah...after a long while...i feel like blogging again. i don't when is the next entry gonna be. So yeah...it's Sunday...yesterday (31st Aug 2013) is our Merdeka Day. lots of people went on and on about the Merdeka Day celebration...parade, fireworks and stuff. i never went to all that stuff...well, yeah maybe once or twice...years back. just not interested i guess. but...does that mean i don't love my country...? i don't think so, i love this country...Malaysia...born and raised...i just don't like going to all those celebrations...too many people...too crowded...jamms everywhere. oh man...that is soooo not for me.

but this morning...got a call from dad...saying one of our atok just passed away...Innalillah. speaking of which...last month my uncle passed away...a few months before that...an aunty of mine passed away. if u ask me...i'm kinda terrified, as far as for today...there's been a lot of deaths in my family.

so what else...? all i can say is, times are hard for me and my wife. trying our hardest to make ends meet. i can always blame somebody else...but no matter how i try to put it...it all comes back to me. i regretted it...i think i can say one of the biggest regret i ever felt. too sure...so impatient...

heh...i guess that's all...for now.

-stixx, fixxing out-